I don't expect you to understand
I know what you think I did is the opposite of grand.
I never once broke your rules or lied
but if you refuse to listen my hands are tied.
I can not share everything that I feel
if you refuse to hear what I choose to reveal
I am not stupid nor immature nor irresponsible
if you would see without choosing to be blind, I am reasonably sensible
I do love you and my father dearly and always
I will always care and love and help all my days
If only you would see how much i truly care
and how hard it is for me, to this pain bare
I dont expect a change over night or a change at all
I just want to be loved, or at least shown a speck so small
I just want to know that you will be there for me
that you will understand what it is like for me to be me
I have done nothing against you and only stop your words for your own good
If only you can see what people truly are and give them a fair chance as you should
You would see that i am different from you and yet the same
I do not merely carry your name.
I have your feet, your talents and ears,
But this fear dear mother is not one of my fears.
I base my love on whats inside, not the appearance
I base it on whom you are not circumstance.
I understand you're confused and fearful
Please understand I am always careful.
Please see that though I cant comprehend your misunderstanding
I have never and will never leave your side through anything.
I am not pushing you away nor trying to get rid of you
I just want to be my own person- much like you wanted too.
I am your child in more ways than one
if you could see that, our memories together would be more fun.
I do not wish to condemn nor harm
I am not taken in by charm
I am able to see you do not think as i do
but then again, who does? if anyone,they are few.
I have never been like yogi or fluffy or ballie or you
I am my own person as is everyone, as are you.
I do not wish to wage a war, not to hurt nor settle a score
I one day hope this will settle in your core
That you may realise I care more than words can express
nothing will make me love you any less
I was and will be by your side through thick and thin
And carry you when you feel you can not win
I have always been and will always be
spook,freak, Kaas kril, booboo, goggo, me.
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